Things I Do Want...

Okay, so, I keep telling people reasons why I don't want a relationship. They're very valid, very true reasons. But what I don't tell them is that there's also reasons I DO want a relationship. I never list them because I don't want everyone else to know. But since the whole point of this blog is secrecy, I can list them here. So...

I do want someone at home that can hold me when I'm having a bad day.

I do want someone to tell me I look cute in my little house-dress that's too short for the public.

I do want to kiss someone before I die. I'm a virgin for fuck's sake! I AM cute. And, okay, I'm anti-social. But there's people out there that are ugly bastards with horrible personalities that have had sex. But I'm 26 and I've never even been kissed.

I do want someone that's just mine. Someone that puts me first. I can't even put me first all the time. I just want to be somebody's most important person. Not second to a parent, a kid, or a spouse. Just me - my somebody.

I want someone that'll make me laugh even when I'm in such a bad mood all I wanna do is stay mad.

I want someone that will suddenly make it seem like putting the book down would actually be a good thing, cause for once reality is better than fiction.

I want someone that could read all these blogs and see past the crazy.